Elephant

Before the blogosphere starts to worry about our whereabouts, I figured I better write a post to set the record straight. We are home in Estes trying to get back in a groove. Mark was able to drive with us which was wonderful and we even got to spend all day Sunday and Monday with him at home. It really worked out perfectly.

Now I'll cut to the chase. The main purpose of this post truly isn't to let you know we're home but to let you know more about the big picture. I would love to do a poignant well thought out post about my feelings towards my Dad, life and the feelings I have racing around in my heart. I would love to jot it all down so I'll never forget every emotion that my mind has been throwing at me. But I can't. I try and it just doesn't come out.

What I do know (and I told my parents this) is that I feel like I lived a lifetime in the past 7 weeks. We went from feeling down right low to feeling pretty okay with things. From utter sadness to smiles and laughter again. Truly, the last 4 weeks of our visit almost felt like a time warp. My Dad's new chemo treatment really surprised us all and started giving him a little bit back. We really didn't think we'd see an improvement. He has so much more mobility, his pain is still manageable and he is back to sleeping in his own bed! We were even lucky to do a couple of outings with him.

In a nutshell, the last 7 weeks were a true gift. One that I will cherish forever. It was almost as if we were given a little time bubble where we could forget about the big elephant in the room. The elephant is still there but we were able to hide him behind the curtains for awhile and enjoy each other. On our drive out to Utah, I wasn't sure what to expect (none of us did). I don't think any of us thought we'd have such an improvement. I credit a little bit of that to the chemo but most of it to my Dad. He sure knows how to tame an elephant.